I miss you.

Walking in the rain...
Dreaming...
Sitting on the swing at Notch...
Dreaming...
Reading our Bibles together...
Dreaming...
Making breakfast...
Dreaming...
Egg Sandwiches...
Dreaming...
Baking cookies...
Dreaming...
Shopping together...
Dreaming...
Cooking together...
Dreaming...
Wandering around Bates...
Dreaming...
Making ends meet...
Dreaming...
Driving cross country...
Dreaming...
Surprising your mom...
Dreaming...
Buying a couch...
Dreaming...
Building a snowman...
Dreaming...
Rebuilding Dad's kitchen...
Dreaming...
Making new friends...
Dreaming...
Visiting old friends...
Dreaming....
Wandering around the City...
Dreaming...
Finding the perfect Christmas gifts...
Dreaming...
Playing dominoes with my family...
Dreaming...
The way they call you "George"...
Dreaming...
Exploring Seaport Village...
Dreaming...
Going to the zoo...
Dreaming...
Calling daddy from the monkeys...
Dreaming...
Wandering aimlessly at the Wild Animal Park...
Dreaming...
Playing with Lego...
Dreaming...
The smiles from our wedding day...
Dreaming...
Watching movies with you...
Dreaming...
Dinner and a movie dates...
Dreaming...
Walking on the beach...
Dreaming...
Hotel Del with your Dad...
Dreaming...
Exploring Alcatraz hand in hand...
Dreaming...
Christmas Eve traditions...
Dreaming...
Thanksgiving with your family...
Dreaming...
Thanksgiving just the 2 of us...
Dreaming...
Dancing at Tricia's wedding...
Dreaming...
Hanging out in the Red Room...
Dreaming...
Unpacking my classroom together...
Dreaming...
Dinner with the Hinrichs...
Dreaming...
Riding the Train at Bell Gardens...
Dreaming...
Picking out our digital camera...
Dreaming...
San Diego with Sam and Natalie...
Dreaming...
the fair, food, concerts, smelly animals...
Dreaming...
Spagetti Dinners...
Dreaming...
Risk with Charlie...kicking his butt...
Dreaming...
Moving on a whim...
Dreaming...
Butterfly Kisses...
Dreaming...
Leaving on a Jet plane...
Dreaming...
Barn-swinging...
Dreaming...
Building our church...
Dreaming...
Patchwork stairs...
Dreaming...

I miss you

BUT

I don't miss...

Crying myself to sleep.
dreams dying...
Feeling alone.
dreams dying...
Being afraid of you.
dreams dying...
Hurting.
dreams dying...
You not loving my family.
dreams dying...
Finding this apartment without you.
dreams dying...
The gap between you and me.
dreams dying...
Not communicating.
dreams dying...
Dark Age of Camelot.
dreams dying...
The things that went flying.
dreams dying...
Sitting in the car just to be with you.
dreams dying...
Doing everything I could to make you happy...
dreams dying...
And you still not being happy...resenting me.
dreams dying...
The desires you never knew...because you didn't take the time.
dreams dying...
Seeing my things on the front lawn.
dreams dying...
Watching your anger tear us apart.
dreams dying...
Standing between you and forever apart.
dreams dying...
Holding you back.
dreams dying...
Not letting you go.
dreams dying...
The fighting...the yelling...the hurtful words and accusations...
dreams dying...
building walls instead of a relationship...
dreams dying...

Watching our dreams die.